Taking breaks from social media has been my hobby for years now. I sometimes announce my return then I disappear for a while again. It’s been a battle. Trying to position social media in my life in a way that doesn’t affect me in ridiculous proportions. The breaks never did anything. The problems & things I hate about social media are still there whenever I return. I still do not know how to handle these things. So I’m quitting for good now.
These days I can’t trust my thoughts anymore. Because when I have an idea, it’s something I saw on Twitter. When I make a joke, it’s something I saw on Twitter. It’s something I watched on Instagram. It’s something I watched on Snapchat. TikTok. So these thoughts were never even my thoughts.
Why do these apps have so much pull on me? Why do I have this urge to pick up my phone every minute? Why can’t I work for hours, meditate for longer, without allowing these apps to interrupt my flow? I hate not being in control of my actions. I hate when I hop on Instagram & my ego takes over. I hate when I hop on Twitter and see folks being savage just for clout.
…And we’re to blame as a society because we promote that. Obviously we were born into this but we promote that & we reward that. We reward a certain monetary level that you hit. We reward a certain amount of followers that you hit. We reward a certain amount of clout that you get. We can’t look away. — Jermaine Lamarr Cole
So why am I doing this? What am I doing this for?
I’m trying not to be that guy. I’m trying to figure out how to be free from all of these. I hate when something is pulling my strings. I want to be in full control. In full control of my actions & thoughts.
The title is inspired by Kendrick Lamar’s 2016 release. Kendrick’s title & cover art was inspired by American artist, Mark Rothko. By Genius, Mark Rothko was “known for his “multiforms”. Although Rothko never called them multiforms he did describe his paintings as “self-contained units of human expression.”
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